May 2009
i will never make another promise
today was good, and the next few days should be good. i hope it stays warm. i don’t really have a lot to say. i think i was meant to live in the comic book world, or maybe i just wish i did. my head hurts.
its really photoshopped, but i like it a lot for some reason.
so what if it hurts? we all deserve the right to...
if there is one thing that i can say i truly believe it, it’s love. and i can honestly say that if there is one thing i want from life more than anything, is to find love and be loved again. the happiest and most alive i have ever felt in my life was when i was in love, and i am finally okay with waiting to find someone to give me that feeling again. for so long i have been eager and anxious...
i've turned my back on you
i wish school was starting sooner. i need more things to focus on, because not having anything to work on or do makes me thing of a million things i do not want to think about, or care about things that i wish i didn’t. i hate saying that i’m lonely, especially when a good portion of my time is spent with amazing people, but i am. and i get my hopes up, even though i try not to, and i...
is this the way a toy feels when its batteries run...
i saw a blurry picture of you and started to cry. it’s not fucking fair, i do not want to miss you. i hate that i miss talking to you, i hate myself for it. you hurt me more than anyone else has, you have proven to me that i should never fully trust anyone. and i fucking miss you. but i don’t miss being with you, i just miss talking to you. i miss when you made me smile and laugh. and...
this is not my heart
headache and stomachache, i really didn’t think drank that much last night. oh well. yesterday went down to my dads and took a bunch of pictures of his museum for him, i still have a bunch to edit but i really like the way they turned out. i’d like to do more interior photography because i think i have a knack for it.
i feel really weird today. i don’t know why but i don’t...
i wanna feel like i wanna feel forever
today the only things i ate were hot dogs and mac and cheese, i think i should mark it as a good day. hung out with piderman and jesse, and thats really it. cassi and i are going to try and go to sonic everyday, because its amazing. but tomorrow i’m going down to my dad to take pictures for his muesum, so we won’t be able to tomorrow. sad.
i’ve been digging a little bit more...
and i lied to myself and said it was for the best
the past few days have been interesting to say the least. went to the city thursday to see lydia and owl city and swimming with dolphins, and wandered around the city completely faded, way more faded than i’ve been in a while. pete wentz’s bar angels and kings is absolutely terrible. if you do ever go, never get a margarita. worst thing i’ve ever drank. i’m also very...
i can't wait til we meet again
i did absolutely nothing today. what a goddamn bummer. jesse was supposed to hang out but his car is stupid so he couldn’t. and cassi doesn’t get home until like midnight, so i have to wait until tomorrow to see her, but thats okay because we’re spending the whole day together mmm.
i think i want to work on art fag stuff in a bit. i’m working on portraits of friends, but...
screaming gets you nothing
bamboozle this weekend was so good. saturday got to see the get up kids, and international superheros of hardcore (or new found glory) did a lifetime cover, and i got awesome paramore sunglasses. sunday it rained all day but had more fun than i did saturday. taking back sunday was amazing, and i cannot wait to see them three times in june.
cassiopeia comes home tomorrow, i cannot wait to see her....
lock my heart in a brass box
tomorrow going to jersey for bamboozle, i am so excited. i cannot wait to see the get up kids and taking back sunday. its going to be amazing, whether i am with people or alone. i didn’t do anything productive today besides dancing. i thought i would make some sort of art, but made none. just hung out with matt and janine all day. i am trying to not think about you as much as i have, just...
